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the net..
useful for finding information and other things. we are happy when we successfully find things that we are actually looking for. but...[on behalf]


it was probably around 11 and i decided to search for some flight tickets to go back. my mum broke her arm while helping out in the kitchen. had to go back and see her. maybe help out here and there. the obligations of being the only unmarried child.

then i thought, why not? so my fingers easily slid across the keyboard easily and typed his name in the search area. the page transformed in a few seconds to a list of links containing his name. my eyes scanned the page. as my lips was about to curl up into a smile, my jaw widened in disbelief. my eyes was flooded with tears. a surge of pressure pushed against my throat, suffocating me. no...this cannot be!

'memorial website honouring the life of...'
'... was killed as he was riding his bike to work...'
'In wake of .... tragic death...'
'...died from multiple blunt injuries...'


No..No..it has to be a different person, maybe with the same name. Yes..yes..that had to be the reason I am reading all these statements.

I forced my hands to click every link and read frantically. The truth unraveled. I came to realize and accept that it was him. He went last July, last July...

No..
Tears gushed out...