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this is bad. hope its not geting worse. my brain cant seem to retain enough useful memory to be used in work. i can't focus sometimes. and i can't hold a beneficial/fruitful/condensed/knowledgeable discussion with many people anymore. there is so much lack of knowledge/current information in my brain. and this situation is eating up my work, my promotion and the trust between colleagues to carry out any job.

this is bad.