silence....

i am standing
everything is silent
no music
no whispers
no fingers clicking on the keyboard
no DHPLC machine making music through the night
no pitter patter from lizards scurying over the ceiling...
no flicker from my Beta in his cute aquarium...

but then..

what is that noise..
buzzing in my ear..
moving from left to right and left again
repeating its movements
in the hemispheres of my brain

it gets louder and louder
combining with the beats of my heart that i suddenly relized existed
i try fighting the noise away..
my hands cupping my face
my hands covering my ears
my hands trying to squash the noises out of my throbing thinking device
trying to numb my senses

trying..and trying...

at last i surrender..
accepting the noises as just an intrusion in my previously calm and silent life..
'its all in the mind' i repeat to myself...
its all in the mind
its all in the mind
its all in the mind
its all in the mind
its all in the mind
its all in my mind
its all in my mind
its all in my mind
..my mind..
the mind is mine
mine to control
mine to manipulate...
mine to filter
mine to fill
and mind to empty..

that did it!
the noises went away
i succeded in facing the noises..my problems all jumbled in to a huge BUZZ.

emotions are a gift to be appreciated but rationality is a priceless acquired asset
use both wisely..